swimming holes

i need to find more swimming holes

good ones. with cold water.

no chlorine. or salt. or people with radios.

and swim. instead showers.

skinny like a shorn sheep. my hair is short 

my beard is gone. and i look a little more boyish.

closer to how i feel.

i'm trying to figure a way to leave the country. and things that make me feel comfortable.

things like language and familiar faith/hypocrisy. familiar license plates.

and the shackles? the car. possessions. loans.

2 months and a 2000 mile drive separate me from.

marriage. my little brother. my longest lived pal. is getting married.

feels like a bookend to childhood.

i miss the yellow breeches and the LeTort. its crickets and its trout. 

the west is big. sometimes too big.

the city in this valley is small, and too much of a sprawl.

the culture this city supports doesn't justify the smog.

skateparks help.

i miss trees and pennsylvania summer.